| TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 19TH; |
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"is it so hard to believe our hearts are made to be broken
can't you see that the beauty of love lies in constant dying
don't you want our hearts to be torn wide open
won't you feel the heaven in our endless cry"
—"the 9th circle", H.I.M |
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| i've been slightly obsessed with this particular song lately. on repeat, PLZ!! oh, my heart. the past is my everything. but since the present is constantly kicking my behind, let's fast forward 24 years from the release of that song... |
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| so i had the opportunity of seeing ville valo live for the 2nd time this year. in my own neck of the woods this time around. who would've thought??! |
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| deep down in my mind, somehow i am still convinced that the real ville is being stranded somewhere and has been exchanged with this actual new ville doppelgΓ€nger who's on tour right now. BWAHAHHAHAHAHA. ok, ok. kidding. half-kidding. *sigh* it's not an age thing. at least i don't think it's an age thing. i mean he's not even 50 yet, for cryin' out loud. still can't quite put my finger on it. honestly, my brain is downright struggling to match this new era alongside the old. very "unsolved mysteries"-ish if you ask me! |
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| here we go again i'm gonna sound like the true b*tch that i am, aren't i?? π am i asking too much from a man who was making music back when some of the kids attending the gig weren't even born yet? a man whose musical legacy has long been established and has already given the fans so much? |
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| *** warning *** apparently i'm on a slope to whining once more while still adoring THE HELL out of that human being !!! (holy sh*t i'm complicated like that hahhahahahah) whilst being soooo grateful that he finally played "the funeral of hearts" which he'd skipped at the NYC show, argh! π€π€π€ |
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| convo overheard from my crowd-neighbours after his set; "has he been sick?" *shrug* i, too, genuinely wonder. cannot shake the feeling of how he sorta looks/acts unwell. like in tales from prior romanticised lyrics, (some) life having been sucked out of him. of how when he sings "join me in death" now it feels like he's about halfway there; now don't hit me hardcore fans—only saying that in a lighthearted way!! <-- if anything blame my weird dark sense of humor. yet strangely enough, it's a feeling i get mostly/only while he's up on stage. so maybe it's the hat or maybe it's the lighting or maybe it's the fact that he's most likely skinnier than ever? or could it be the sole contrast from the younger too-perfect sexay ville whose now miles away? can't put my finger on it. but just to be clear, it's not just appearance-wise rather than his entire demeanor. soooo strange to me. |
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alright, humor me for a minute but here's what i'd tweak for his live set:
- keep the goddamn mic stand on stage instead of clinging to the mic cord while avoiding to step on it!
- have more than those 2 main moves while singing: crouching forward + holding stomach with right arm.
- at last, ditch the yoko ono look. |
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| also, i'll say i don't think it was the smartest idea ever to squeeze an older mr valo between two highly energetic younger bands. cuz the discordance might be a bit obvious and sorta feels like the uncle taking his hyperactive kids on the road. hahahhahahaha. π€ ville from the past would have been perfect, alas, not this one. at least not in my very humble opinion. you want a match made in freakin' touring heaven?? just a couple months ago with the girls from kΓ¦lan mikla. hands. down. |
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| the fact that he only spoke out to the audience once towards the end didn't bother me much at all. it's a given that when you only have 1 hour to play, there's very little time to chit-chat so you can squeeze in as many songs as possible. other than that, wow, i'm aware this hasn't been such a positive entry but YES i still enjoyed his set. ha! it's just that, damn. the whole H.I.M era seeped through my bones and soul in such a weird way, and it's difficult not to compare. music can do that to me sometimes. and clearly i'm still mourning this beautiful crazy person who's no longer with us in some way. maybe i just have to accept he cleaned up his act, with goddamn bleach + spic and span. i changed, he changed, we all changed. i guess so be it. |
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| btw before i forget: i am SO SOOOOOO thrilled i got to see him sing "when love and death embrace" in NYC, cuz he didn't do this one this time. |
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| p.s.: so lovely to finally be able to meet eryn who came to the show from the states! heeee. |
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